The Shedding

I can’t fully put into words the deep transformation I’ve experienced over the past few weeks.

And truly, “transformation” is the right word—but not entirely. I think shedding is more accurate. I’ve been letting go of old parts of myself… beliefs, wounds, patterns, ways of thinking and being. Old versions of me. It’s been an unbecoming. And now, finally, I feel like I’m beginning to scratch the surface of my core.

I’ve always known who I am and what I stand for—but this is different. This is deeper. Bigger than what my human self can fully understand. It still doesn’t all make sense, but there’s a knowing in my soul that I can no longer deny, hide from, or overlook.

It began with a very powerful healing session I felt called to receive—from a man, which is something I’ve never done before. The experience of being held in a safe, sacred space by a man—with no sexual tension or undertones—was incredibly healing. To be seen and treated simply as a human, not as a woman to be desired, was new for me. And it cracked something open. The healing session itself was powerful, but being held in that kind of safety was what truly blew me away.

I’ve been asking to heal my father wounds. My abandonment wounds. The parts of me shaped by circumstances I had no control over—deep scars still playing out in my subconscious. I know this experience was a big part of that healing. To be held in vulnerability, fully trusting, fully safe… I’ve never felt that before. It was beautiful.

That healing continued during my Alchemical Healing Level 2 course this past weekend. Another man was present—also a first. I’ve mostly been in healing spaces with women. But here he was, the only man among nine women, showing up to receive, to heal, to release the emotional burdens he’d been carrying. To watch him cry, to witness his courage, to see him step into the divine feminine within himself—it opened my heart wide.

To see him hold space, to feel his compassionate, loving presence—with no sexual energy attached—gave me so much reassurance. The men are doing the work too. They’re hearing the call, stepping into the sacred, and remembering who they are. It even gave me hope that maybe, just maybe, there’s a partner for me in this realm. Someone who can meet me here. I’m so grateful. It’s incredible to be receiving, feeling, and witnessing what I never had—and to realize I can receive it now. I am receiving it now.

And in that, I’m learning what true safety from the divine masculine feels like. What it means to be protected, held, seen as sacred. This is what I desire in partnership. And now that I’ve tasted it, I can’t go back to anything less. A new standard has been set.

Right now, I’m in cocoon mode. While everything around me is blooming, I’m in stillness. I feel a strong need to stay in my own energy, to be unavailable to others—and that’s more than okay. I’m protecting myself. I’m putting myself first. I’m listening and meeting myself exactly where I am—with no shame. No guilt. I am sacred. My energy is sacred. My heart is sacred. And it deserves to be prioritized.

A big part of my journey, I’m realizing, is about creating the love and support I never received. To mother and father myself. To offer myself the things I once searched for outside of me. Is it fair? Of course not. But it’s needed. And I believe it’s part of why I’m here—to learn this so I can teach it. To show others the way back to themselves.

Part of my purpose is to help restore balance—to bring us back into connection with the divine feminine. To guide others back to intuition, softness, nurturing, and the deep inner knowing we all carry. This is what the Earth needs. What humanity needs. To remember what’s been forgotten. To reconnect with our power, our wholeness, and our sacredness.

The time of separation is over. We’ve learned what we needed to from the old ways. Now it’s time to come back. To remember. To unify.

I feel changed—and yet the same. It’s like I’ve shed what was never truly me and returned to the truth of who I’ve always been. There’s a new level of self-respect here. A deeper honoring of my heart, my energy, my purpose. This is the biggest remembering I’ve ever experienced.

Definitely a leveling up.

And I’m proud of me.

I’ve worked so hard. I’ve faced every shadow since the moment I understood what healing really was. I’ve broken generational patterns, let go of so much, and walked through fires to get here. I’ve never stopped. Because I knew I didn’t want to repeat the path that’s brought humanity to this point.

I want to be my best self so I can help others return to truth, to harmony, to love, to peace.

And finally—I’m owning that.

What a ride.

I Manifested My Dream Job

One year ago today, I wrote these words in my journal:

"I want to be part of the development and teachings for the education system of New Earth"

… the next year I was given an incredible & completely aligned opportunity to work as a guest Teacher at the School of Magic: Alternative Micro School. This school is heavily focused on teaching children every day life skills including emotional intelligence and connection. These two topics in my belief are of incredible value for a high quality of life.

For 7 weeks I came in every Monday to colourful mats and loving, courageous, and excited faces of two different age groups. The children were ages 4-8 and 9-12. We learned about the properties of each energy center such as colour, organ function, and emotional function. After the educational information we moved into the experiential and  innerstandings portion with the sound healing and guided meditation. We focused on sensations and visuals, as well as emotions and intuitive messages. We practiced feeling into our energy, connecting our roots to mother earth and cleansing our energetic centers and field while also resetting and regulation our nervous system with deeo breaths and a relaxing state.

The children honestly blew me away with their ability to stay calm and focused. Their ability to tap in to their own energy, intuition, and emotions. As well as share their experiences with incredible detail and a large range of differences was beautiful to witness. We began within the 5 - 7 minute range and by our last session we were up to a whopping 20 minutes! They did sooo good and I can't wait to go back next year and dive even deeper with them!

I am constantly blown away by the universe giving us what we dare to accept and step into. I truly believe my purpose is to hold space for others and guide them to themselves, their own energy, their heart, their emotions, their healing, their gifts.. All of it. That it is so important for our children to have these abilities and tools of navigation to understand themselves. That is what we as humanity need to evolve and grow into a beautiful free and abundant race. I am so honoured and humbled that it is already here and I was given such a beautiful connection and opportunity!

This is only the beginning <3

The Overwhelm and Anxiety of September

September felt awful! I'm not going to lie. My experience was one of unsteadiness, to say the least. Even though some things in my life were going so great, and I really had nothing to complain about, I felt off. I felt disconnected and ungrounded. I felt lost and had a lack of clarity.

I had a constant sense of being overwhelmed, but it felt like it was more in the air, like in the collective than actually mine. It felt like like everyone was feeling it but nobody was giving it any attention. Like we are all just running on the treadmill trying to get by, the elephant in the room was there, but everyone was looking the other way because deep down we know there is nothing we can really do about it.

The world is on the brink of change in a massive way. We all know it, we all feel it. Things are crashing and literally burning around us. Nothing we thought was true is true. Everything we have known and trusted is being questioned. The foundation of the world we thought we knew is in question. No one feels safe, no one knows how to prepare, we are all waiting to respond and yet we are all trying to get through our day-to-day as costs continue to rise and the circus continues lol it is quite fascinating.

To me, this is VERY exciting. The world needs to change, I think we can all agree that the way the world has been operating is not sustainable or beneficial for humans. SO YAY.... even though it hurts and its crazy and it feels weird.. I'm so excited.

I think of all the times in my personal life when I have felt things crumbling and burning, and then to what comes after, has always been an awesome rebirth creating and rebuilding myself and my life better than it was before. People and opportunities that I never thought of or saw coming just pop in and take me in a completely different more aligned direction.

I suggest instead of clinging to the way things were, being open to what may be!

These times are exciting because it means there is so much room and demand for creating new ways of being! New systems, new needs, new sources.. all the things.

What do you believe in? What would you like to see more of in the world?

We are here to create and to be of service. As we are all a unit, all the humans and the Earth. We need to start working together and being considerate and respectful and you simply cannot do that without healing yourself first.

Connection is key. That is my passion and what I am building my business around. I believe our passions are what we are here to bring to the world because they are what the world needs.

In September I experienced more conflict than I have in a long time. This is how I know massive transformation is ahead. These things were being brought to the surface in my personal life to show me where attention, healing, and boundaries were needed but also, how to move through conflict in a way that feels good for me. ( I did not succeed in case you were wondering… sometimes we learn how we want to behave be behaving the complete opposite) And that is the human experience.

It doesn't always feel good. It is often messy and sticky and crunchy, but from that is where miracles and creation are born.